Monday, May 25, 2009

Study week

Exam is coming very soon and I'm not going to go online for 2 weeks due to the study weeks. (I hope I can....)
Help to take care my blog, ok?

Friday, May 22, 2009

A line to cross?

Every night that is empty and quite , two little shadows will be seen laying on the floor beside the wall in a market. If you have ears that are as sensitive as the one owned by my lecturer, then you will be able to hear some whispering of words or.... maybe sentences. The whispering sound is so soft until you can feel the air around you is suffocating you, if you are too focused in hearing the conversation.

Nights are cold and two stray cats were chatting to each others. One of the its name is 'Meuw-Meuw', while another is 'Mee-Mee'. As usual, they would chat about their recent life and the lives in the market is always their topic. They would asked each others questions like



'How many fish each of them got in the morning?',
'Did any of them get bullied by the other stray cats?',
'How's the fishmonger's mood recently?',
'Are the fish fresh?',
'What's the best time to snatch fish from any of the market visitors?',
'What technique can be used to prevent themselves from being discovered?',
'How to 'meow' properly in order to attract people's attention?' and the list goes on.......

One night, Meuw-Meuw asked Mee-Mee a question in a slight tone of hesitation.
"Can I ask you a question? Meow~" (Don't laugh!)
"What's the matter? Is it about the mackerel or sardine?"
"Erm... it's about a line"
"Are you asking me the best fishing line to be used? I'm not clear with that, perhaps you can ask Meowy. He's more experienced in it."
''No... ... it's not that kind of line. It's the abstract kind of line."
"A line that is abstract? Did you take any Chivas just now?"

Meuw-Meuw seemed to be a little bit frustrated.
"It's not kind of line!! STUPID FUR-BALL!It's the line of relationship!"
"........" (__ ____lll)

They stayed silence for the next 20 seconds and Mee-Mee's expression was showing that it was stunned by Meuw-Meuw's respond.
"Sorry...erm.....I know I'm a bit over-reacted."
"... ... What line are you refering to just now?" (___ ____ llllll)
"Let's imagine...In the fairy world of a Tom and a Queen, there exists a line between friendship and boy-girl-relationship (a.k.a. BGR). It is an extremely thin line, laying between that 2 types of relationship. In the past, there are numerous obstacles being placed on the line and all the possible access to boy-girl-relationship side were blocked."
(Meuw-Meuw clearing its throat)"hmm..hmmm"

"But, now.......Both Tom and Queen are gorwn-up, strong and there is no more obstacles nor any impediment that may stop them from accessing to the BGR side. What is more important is that Tom and Queen know each others very well. If you were Tom,will you cross it?"

For a cat who don't really like to use its brain in normal daily life, Mee-Mee hesitated for some time before it gave Meuw-Meuw it's reply.
"It depends on my intentions and the current situation. If there is an intention to further their relationship, then I would cross it. But, this will only happen if it is allowed by the situation."

"What should Tom do if there is a potential intruder? I mean another 'Tom' who's trying to approach Queen."
"It's the same. If Tom do not intend to further their relationship, then the new 'Tom' is nothing to their relationship. He will just like a part of Queen's life that Tom can never interfere."

"Well... ... I got it."

"What did you say just now?"

"Oh....meow~NOTHING!"
"Hahahaha......"

Sound of trucks carrying tonnes of fish, heading towards the market could be heard.....

I need consistency

Recently, I got back the previous topic test results. For some subjects, I was quite satisfied but, for some, I was a bit dissapointed.
"How are you going to expect me to give you an A? If you don't show me a consistent good performance..."
'PAK--!!!'
I can feel a stone being thrown onto my chest......(haha....maybe a bit too sensitive)
I'm not a person that always show a steady performance. There's a specific period nd I don't know when is it.....erbs..... Most of the time, it depends a lot on my mood. If I'm not feeling confortable or maybe due hormone imbalance, then whatever I do in that day will not end up nicely. However, if it's a sunny day and I wake up in a cheerful mood, then the out come at the end of the day will be out of expectation. (I mean the positive way...XP)
CONSISTENCY!!!
CONSISTENCY!!!!
I NEED CONSISTENCY!!!!!
p/s: somebody found book and returned it to the library....
it means I don't need to pay for it.
(emotionless....)

Thursday, May 21, 2009

A song

This morning, I was addicted listenning to this song. Song likes this song. They way the song is sang is so soulful and.... touching. I LIKE IT!

Kris Allen-Top 11- To Make You Feel My Love.mp3

"To Make You Feel My Love" by Kris Allen

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the star appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
There's no doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There ain't nothing that
I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on rolling sea
Down on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy make your dreams come true
Know there's ain't nothin' that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for youT
o make you feel my love
To make you feel my love

Sunday, May 17, 2009

惜AOP?

最近,有点小忧郁。从图书馆借来的书弄不见了。。。。。。
再加上年中考试要来了,压力。。。。
这个礼拜,蝶莉先生(Mr. Derick)给了我们一些功课,要我们回去准备一段长达五分钟的讲稿(还要有映篇slide)。
题目是:你支持安乐死吗?(挖劳A!好EMO的一个题目)
为了准备这个讲稿,大家也读了不少关于安乐死的新闻,历史,法律等。不少朋友都说他们会站在反对的那方。我呢?我觉得我偏向于支持的那方。
原因?可能是最近有点小忧郁罢?(这也叫理由吗?)
好了。。。。继续找资料。。。。

Recently, I'm a bit EMO, because I had lost the book I borrowed from library. Haixxzz........
Mid term exam also coming very very soon. The pressure is piling up......forming hills already.
Last week, Mr. Derick gave us an assignment. It's a 5 minute speech about our stand in the issue of Euthanasia. (What an EMO topic.....) Most of the friends said that they will be standing on the opposing side, but I think I will be more inclined towards the supporting side. However, all is not confirmed yet. Who knows? Perhaps I might change my mind? Alright, have to resume my searching of information already. Bye.

-An extremely random post-
随手一写






















生命之管道?舍命之管道?
Way to live on or way to leave on?

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

To Jay Chow's SIster

Dear Jay Chow's sister,

Sorry for the very late Mother's Day post
Sorry for not calling back often, like what Daniel does everyday. XD
Sorry for not be able to spend time with you
Sorry for letting you do all the laundry alone again....
Sorry for always waiting you to call, but not the other way round.
Sorry for all the thing I have done in the past 18 years that may hurt you.
Sorry for throwing tantrum at you in the past.
Sorry for making you not able to go back to Sg Petani as often as before.

Thank you for bringing me, SQ, Shuoh and Jai up.
I know it is not easy to bring up a child,
not to mention when there's two at the same time.
I know, you and Pa had worked hard for the family.
It's not easy to support a family.
Thank you.
Although Pa used to always throw tantrum....
your patience and tolerance will never be wasted.
Thank you for giving me a TRUE childhood....
Although in the process, me and SQ would always find some disagreement in it....
Thank you.

I know SQ and I may not be the perfect twins, not the one you dreamt.
Still remember the night when we gather around your laps,
asking you to repeat the story which you have told more than 10 times......
those fables you cut from the newspaper....
those days....those nights...
Thank you


I know I'm always the one who is more studborn and unreasonable
I'm always the one who rejects things that I don't like.
Thank you for having faith in me.
Having faith that I'll change some day.
Thank you for balancing up the whole family.
With all your love and sweat.
Thank you for marrying Pa
This is what we call 'neutralization'
Thank you for tolerating with Grandma
Although I know sometimes, it's her fault and impossible to tolerate.

Thank you for everything......

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Song suggested by SQ

My brother told me to listen to one song. It's a song from the movie 'Talentine'
Pergi-Aizat
Sayu terpisah
hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
berhembus angin rindu
begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu
hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
tak lagi kudengari
kau pergi..
pergi..
sepi tanpa kata
terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
Gapa pun kata mereka
biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia
The strumming of guitar is the simple and easy type, which I like a lot. However, I still prefer the English version of this song, "I Go". I feel that it conveys more feelings and emotions and more EMO-ness in it.
humming........."Kau pergi...eee....eee...."

Monday, May 4, 2009

Summer Camp 2009

Last weekend, the summer camp organized by OUR Club (the JPA club) which I have been waiting for ages and ages and ages and ages..........and seemed will not be successful.... FINALY CAME!!! On 1st of May, which is the Labour Day, at around 2.30 p.m. , we departed from KBU towards our destination - Dusun Eco Resort, which is just an hour hour journey.(I noticed that all the buses we rent were labelled with LIM KOK WING UNIVERSITY....sweat (-__-lll)
When we reached there we had some ice-breaking games and divied into different groups. My group is called 'Jingle Bell' (perhaps the one who thought of this song is too desperate to get another Christmas present?) Later, we were separated into different dormitories...I stay with Leong, Jun Kai, SJ, 小弟, Nabil, Hazman, Ah Beng, Jinn Jyh, Daniel, Aizat and Darwin.
Our room (saw my bottle?)

The first day of the camp was quite boring because basically the programmes are dinner and a small game called 'BLIND NIGHT'. It sounds interesting, but it turned out to be quite boring. I'm quite disappointed with the first night because we were asked to go to bed at around 10.00 pm. YES!! It's 10 pm!!! It's a bit akward because a camp should be hectic, energy-draining and at the same time, interesting and unforgetable. Therefore, all of us went for swimming at around 10.15 pm!!! YES!!!
SWIMMING!!!
RENANG!!!
游泳!!!


There was a pool infront of the cateen, which was quite big but a bit shallow. The water was damn cold but we enjoyed it pretty much!!! CRAZY BUNCH OF STUDENTS!! (including me..hehe)

On the next day, the programme was obviusly more packed than the first day. We went jungle trekking and afterthat, we had a sharing session with an ex-Petronas sponsored student.

Before we went into the jungle!! (Zhaf sure seemed to be very excited)

Small group photo

Hehe....I like Ah Beng's expression XD

I still prefer Ah Beng's facial expression...looked like..erm.... monkey?

Helpless!!!

Ne-! Lolipop and touge (Me & Aizat)
Me and Daniel


This is the freakiest one.....
There is a 'third eye' in the photo and bloody tear was trickling down....

We asked him about his university life in Australia and all sorts of minor and major things. Later, we went for the hanging bridge which is just a few steps from our dorm. The brige-crossing session took us the whole evening. The AJK were quite worried that we could not finish everything by dark. But, everyone still managed to have their chance to cross it.

Go Leong!! GO Indera!!!

People queueing....


Daniel posing before he crossed

Nicholas sure know how to pose....XP



I'm a ROCK star!!

Later, we went to the pool AGAIN!!!
MANDI! MANDI!! MANDI!!!
WATER! WATER!! WATER!!!
游泳! 游泳!! 游泳!!!
I played rugby with a group of Malay friends in the water and it was more fun than I thought it would be. It's so rough and crazy...once a person get a ball ,the rest will rush towards him like a group of ladies who saw a notice of "SHOP FOR FREE!!!! IT's SO CRAZY!!!!". Eveyone was rushing like mad...haha... But, I do really had a great time with them. Sometimes, it just need a few bruises and some violence to make the whole game INTERSTING!!! (oopps.....I sound abit gila.. XP)

After we had a good match, the Malay had to go for prayers and I also went back and wait for the so-called-campfire-night to begin. We had a barbeque dinner which the food was prepared before hand by the canteen. Then, there was different performances from different groups.
Mr. Al looked a bit emo (is that Mud beside him? what's he doing?)


From left: Gary, Daniel, Meng Cai and me singing..the mic was not functioning.
(the song was composed by Daniel and the lyrics was written by another 2 friends and me)

There were other breath-taking performances too. But, my camera was just too full to accept more. aikxx!!! (>_<)


On the last day, we went for obstacle challenges and flying fox. The obstacle challenges and flying fox were quite fun, just that it's too short.



SJ and Me before it's our turn



We shouted like mad to heat up the atmosphere....it's boring to see everyone fly downwithout any reaction....haha



Then, we had our tea and it's the EXPLORACE!!! I don't have the picture of the race (perhaps I will upload it when I get it)My team got the third place!!! Way to go!!! JINGLE BELL!!!

After the game, we packed our things and ready to go BACK!!!
While waiting for the truck which was supposed to fetch us down the hill, I caught some interesting posers.

A weird pose from Ms. Effa, our Applicable Math lecturer



....I have been waiting since......



The lonely couple.....abandoned



Atiqah : Later want to go One-U shopping?
Jihah : WANT!!! I can't wait any longer!!!
Syireen : I have not touched the price tags for 216000 seconds!!!!
Atiqah : DEAL!!



On the way back, I took the last bus. It's so empty until almost everyone was able to have two seats. We reached our hostel at around 5.30 pm.


This camp was fun and I manage to relax myself. Although everything seemed not going to run smooth in the beginning, the AJK still made it a success. It's going to be part of our best memories in KBU. I would like to rate the first night -10/100, second day 95/100, third day 95/100


For those who didn't attend.....I can only say
"I sympathize you all."
For those who really can't attend it, I have nothing to say.
But, for those who gave all the excuses to not attend.......
"THERE IS NO SECOND CHANCE FOR US TO BE YOUNG!!!"


Try to enjoy and relax yourself and appreciate the environment
even your heart miss a beat when you are walking on a hanging bridge.




A candid shot by Nicholas.

-TATA-